I always joke with Lance that marrying him is a two for one deal because of Alexander. Not only do I get a husband, I also get a son. I don't think Lance or I will ever forget the first time I met Zander. It was Thanksgiving weekend and he was down for the first time since Lance and I had started dating. The three of us spent the day together with Lance's family and then went back to his apartment to spend the evening together. Shortly after we got there, Lance went down stairs leaving me and Zander alone for just a moment. We were reading story books on the couch and Zander whispered to me, "Nicole, marry my dad. Marry Lance. Be my stepmom!"
I think it's amazing that even Zander could feel the magic of our relationship and could clearly see what laid in store for the three of us. The spirit has been very present in our relationship, and I'm so grateful that Zander has been able to experience it as well.
Being Alexander's stepmom I'm sure will present challenges, but I'm so happy for my two for one deal. I've wanted to be a mom for as long as I can remember and in 42 short days I will be given that chance. I see ways in which I've been prepared to fulfill my duties as an instant parent. My heart is full for the support and love I feel from Lance, Alexander and my family.
When feelings of inadequacies enter into my mind I just need to remember that the Lord feels that I can do this-He has entrusted me with this responsibility.
